Life is kinda weird now. It's like a stand still. Nothing is happening. Just, time is moving, yet my SELF doesn't seem to be. It feels as if I'm drifting through the pages, dodging the words, skipping the letters. My ability to write has disappeared. I have many ideas circulating in my head, so much that I've had a constant headache these past few days.
Events in front of me bring tears to my eyes, but the coldness of everything around me, freezes my tears. I wish I could do something. Take away the cold, but I'm being reflected.
Self-reflection. It's around this time of year, that I look back. Of course, somethings I'm proud of, some, not. But it's time for me to change myself again. And so, once again, I better myself, in hopes of serving those around me.
And I leave you with an interesting thought (it might be long):
Amnesia. A person with Amnesia loses his memories. He does not know his name, yet this person lives on anyway. I've seen so many of these stories on TV, so many I have read, and so many I have witnessed. One of my greatest fears, is losing my memory. Memory is such a precious thing. But, its not the losing that scares me, its what happens after you regain it. Sometimes you don't ever get it back, but I suppose most of the time, you do. But, the question that sparks my curiosity and my fear is, when you regain your memory, what about the intrim between losing and finding it again? Does it add on to your old making yourself new? In the numerous stories I've seen and read, the character that loses his or her memory, becomes a different person of course, one that is calm, naive maybe. And whatever they find that attaches them to their new life, they protect it like its their most precious object. And the thing is, they learn so much, from being a new person, and they experience and learn things in different ways.
So when they regain their memory? Does their "self" (before the regaining and after the losing) have amnesia (so to speak). Does it just disappear? All their experiences, does it disappear like the memory once did?
